What are You Thankful For?

It’s Thanksgiving!

Nope. We’re not roasting a turkey nor baking cornucopia. It’s not part of Filipino culture. We have roasted pig but will only be ready on Christmas. As the other part of the world is busy preparing for a traditional dinner, I am reflecting on the things I am thankful for this year. Negative life issues can take away the attitude of thankfulness in our hearts. Sometimes, the blessings that we receive becomes a reason why we forget to offer our thanksgiving to God. I am talking about work.

As the year 2014 is nearing its end, it would be great to look back and count the blessing our family and I have received. This my friend is an early year-end praise report.

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  1. Safe pregnancy and safe birth. I had spots, my water broke prematurely but Sophie and I made it through. Healthy and kicking. My birth plan wasn’t followed. Will I still complain knowing that my Sophie is healthy and beautiful? I dropped the complains and let gratitude fill my heart. I was grateful for the gift of life. For a new soul to love me. I was amazed how financial help came. I was amazed on how God sustains me through the sleepless night. Strength. Endurance. Sanity. There are times I shed tears but these are not of postpartum depression. I never went through that. Thank you, Lord!
  2. -sophie3_799585968_nProvision. The time I sent my resignation letter to my boss, I began to worry about my finances. I have bills to pay, a credit card balance to be cleared. I have been jobless for 5 month. Purely dependent to my parents financially. During those days of father-please-buy-me-this, I remembered the pesos I spent on unimportant things. But by God’s grace, I was able to find an online job. Earning is enough to cover Sophie’s needs. And yes, I felt proud that I am now capable to bless my parents with weekly grocery.Abundant milk supply. I had plenty of liquid gold. More than enough to feed and nourish my little darling.
  3. Nehemiah’s schooling and job search visa (and soon a PR visa, amen!). My super beloved brother is official holding a diploma for his study in NZ.
  4. Supportive family and friends. My pregnancy is semi-secret. I hid for months before my family and closest friends found out. Perhaps, it was pride. I fear being judged of having a baby outside marriage. One thing I realized, if family or friends left you because of these kinds of issue. They are not real as they claim to be. They may ‘beat’ you for your mistake but it won’t forever be the case. They will only do that to get you back to the path where you should be walking. After the lectures, they will help you go back to your feet, help heal your wounds and start all over again. Sniff. Sniff.

i thank God for his steadfast love.

I thank god for his grace.

How about you? What are the things you are thankful for?

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The Joy of Waiting: Week 33

Two of my friends gave birth the past two weeks. Baby Sophie is now 33 weeks. I could feel her weight gain each week. There is now more stress on my back and middle joints. Getting up from bed is becoming a struggle. There is pain. There are discomforts. But excitement still outweighs them all.

Week 33 is also characterized by stronger kicks and jabs. I wonder what our little baby girl is doing inside. One thing I have observed, she seemed not to like pillows on my tummy. She wants to kick them away. It’s becoming a habit to rub the tiny lumps she creates on my tummy whenever she moves. I do this little guessing game of what part of her are those lumps. I think I felt her foot once,another time her knee. It’s really amusing to see my belly in different shapes. Sometimes it’s pointy but most of the time it resembles the shape of a supermoon. 🙂

My “basketball belly” gives a hint of Sophie’s position inside my belly. She’s head down, facing my back – the ideal position for delivery. Sophie can still do some back flips and other stunts ’til the delivery day. I hope she will be on that position when it’s time for her to come out.

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Panic Happens

Panic wrapped me last night. There is an trace of unknown discharge on my shorts and I was like ‘what is this?’. I went through my notes of preterm labor signs. One pointer says: If there’s a discharge, do the sniff test. It smells like ammonia. False alarm, it’s just urine.  I do my pelvic floor exercises but leaks still do happen. Pipi laughed at the situation but I know panic crawled into him too.

After that moment of panic, I went back to bed to talk to Sophie. Rubbing my tummy, I ask her to hang on until week 37. She answered with a ticklish kick on my side as if saying ‘Yes, mommy. I will!”. I am now so much in love with our little Toffee Pie.

Birth plans: Delivery Day Wishes

I finished putting checks on my birth plan and gave a copy to Pipi. He thought birth plan was a medical insurance plan. I was like, ‘No, Lalabs! This is a list of procedures I wanted to be done to me and Sophie on D-day. It’s like my delivery day wishlist’.

I did not enroll for any birth class but I am gearing up for vaginal birth. I have communicated that to my OB and she is supportive of it. I wish there are birth classes in our community. Unfortunately, our rural health has not organized one yet. So to educate myself, I read and watch videos about labor and delivery. I also talk to some of my friends who are already mommies and ask about their delivery experiences.

Proper breathing and delivery positions are few of the important things I have learned. One birth expert says that labor and delivery is a natural process that we, women undergo. Our body knows how to breath when we go through it. All we need is a nice, slow, deep breathing to get the oxygen our body needs. Not the hee, hee, hoo, hoo breathing that we see in movies.

I initially picked semi-reclined position during delivery. That is prior to watching the best positions to do so. Now, I have reconsidered squat and hands and feet. These two positions makes gravity work for you and prevents tailbone injury. It looks awkward, yes! I will have to forget about the awkwardness. What’s important is for Baby Sophie to come out safely, with ease.

I want Pipi to be on my side when I push Sophie out. I am excited to see Sophie and her father have their first moment together. I am also hoping that there will be no conflicts on Pipi’s schedule so that wish could be fulfilled. Who will cut the cord? I want Pipi to do it. I am now imagining how he would feel on the cord-cutting ceremony. A ribbon-cutting ceremony to the outside world.  I want to capture that moment and immortalize it so keep the cameras and smartphones fully charged!

Other wishes: bring home the placenta for an old tradition. I will be blogging about that soon.

As I read more about labor, delivery and birth plan. It made me understand I can actually have a control of what’s gonna happen on D-day. But of course, these ideals can still change as need arises. I am really claiming that vaginal birth. Please, Lord please. Let’s do this!

anne

It’s a Girl!

By the time of writing, my Baby Lalabs is already 28 weeks and 2 days old. In less than 3 months, Pipi and I will be able to hug and kiss her. (EDD: October 2) Yes, Baby Lalabs is a girl! That means, she will no longer be called EK but SOPHIE ELISE or PIE.

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Pipi thinks that SOPHIE sounds cute kahit na makulit. So girly. Upon our research, Sophie is the cuter version of Sophia the goddess of wisdom. One of my favorite Lola is named Sophia.

The second name ELISE is after the name of Nanay Elisa which literally means God is my oath.

Jason Mraz sings “our name is our virtue” so the name should be a good one.

I can’t explain how thrilled Pipi is when he confirmed that Baby is a girl. Though even before he already had an inkling that it will be a female.

Ngayon palang madami na akong bilin for Pipi. That he should always tell that he loves Sophie, of how beautiful and special she is, to send her flowers on special days and to date her on Valentine’s day. In these little gestures, Sophie will grow up a smart lady. That she will be confident about her identity. That she will not easily fall for a guy offering a single stem rose ’cause her father had already given her dozens. ☺

Pregnancy and motherhood is such a wonderful experience.

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